Last night, I was overwhelmed with a deep sense of sadness, something I am feeling right now as I fight back tears of frustration and hopelessness. I'm just not ready to accept the loss of our wedding. But as the date of the venue deadline grows closer, I can't help but feel complete and utter despair set in and this makes me want to cry. I can feel my nose swell up as I type this and if I let myself have a pity party, I could cry for a few days straight. But I know I can't even though I feel it would let out every single negative emotion I feel. I know it won't do any good because we still won't have a wedding...